This shit is bananas

elohvee_e @ 2006-07-22T19:59:00

2006-07-23T03:12:19Z

The weather lately is in-fucking-sane.
BUT

provided with good picture oppsssssssssssssss.

:)
enjoy

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elohvee_e @ 2005-12-10T05:09:00

2005-12-10T13:18:34Z

it should really be some sort of illegal to have to be up at this hour....

FOR THE DENTIST.
pfft.

Wisdom tooth getting pulled this morning.
way looking forward to that.
pfft.

ha.
love you guys
:")

elohvee_e @ 2005-09-23T16:10:00

2005-09-23T23:18:43Z

So emo it hurts

fuck you myspace

2005-09-20T14:38:01Z

So like, Myspace isn't working.

So, I'll write here I guess.

Crazy weather started yesterday. During the day there were orange clouds, like orange, like real toxic looking clouds and shit. The sunset clouds were amazing. There were TWO rainbows. This visual stuck me enough to call Khadiiiiiiiiiiiija.

Later on....
Raining. And thundering, and lightning-ing like crazy hardcore.

SUPER BADASS.
and these weren't and pussy thunders, or lightning...they were fuckin huge and shit. I fuckin love it man.

Went to sleep listening to it.
Woke up to it.
Went back to sleep listening to it..
woke up again hearing it.

GUH-REAT.
:)

Hope it stays like this for a whlie. I doubt it..but it'd be nice.

So I've got like...10 minutes to write...

Things have really been getting me easily irritated lately.

Like....
Immature wee little youngins..which can apply to many things...And it does...
Pfft.

My foot is fucked.
Work will be fun on it.

eeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm,
yeah.

I can't think right now.

elohvee_e @ 2005-09-08T07:21:00

2005-09-08T14:29:12Z

Awww, lookit the 16 year old throwin around big bad words

hopemakills: yeah bitch why didnt you say shit to be punkass bitch

Auto response from oeooh KillerTofu: fuckers.

<3's to jessssssfaciepoodlypie

hopemakills: ill fuckin startg shit with you if youd like where your house my house wherever bitch ill fuck your fatass up
hopemakills: oh so tomorrow when i show up to your house or wherever i can find you dont fuckin say i didnt warn you fat bitch
hopemakills signed off at 7:04:43 PM.
hopemakills signed on at 7:06:01 PM.
hopemakills: oh yeah and try to get your lil gang on me because i have have a bigger one fuckin piussy ass bitch
hopemakills: fuckin now what do you have to say
hopemakills: nothin thats right cause your a lil scared bitch
hopemakills: dont try talking shit to me cause youll go down
hopemakills: watch your fuckin back hannah im not even jocking this time
hopemakills: *joking
hopemakills signed off at 7:27:51 PM.
hopemakills signed on at 8:48:09 PM.
hopemakills: werte fuckers your a pussy

and ANNNNNNNNND!

SO YOU GUYS SAY YOU WONT FUCK WITH ME BECAUSE OF MY AGE WELL THATS BULLSHIT NEXT TIME I FUCKIN SEE YOU GUYS IM NOT HOLDING BACK YOU PUSSY ASS BITCHES YOU GUYS NOE WHO YOU ARE KARLA AND HANNAH MOSTLY HANNAH THAT SHIT TALKING BITCH SHE WANTS TO FUCKIN TRY TO TALK SHIT ON AIM FUCKING BACK YOUR SHIT UP WHEN I FUCKIN TALK TO YOU BACK ALL THE BITCH CAN DO IS CALL US FUCKERS "O.M.G" WOW MAN HANNAH THAT HURTS MAYBE IT WILL HURT WHEN I SMASH YOUR UGLY FUCKIN FACE ON THE FLOOR BITCH AND YEAH IM NOT JUST TALKING SHIT ILL BACK IT UP FUCKIN TRY TO COME AT ME AND LIKE I SAID TRY TO GET YOUR LIL GANG ON ME ILL FUCK YOUR SHIT UP BITCHES SOI THERE NOW YOU HAVE A REASON TO TRY TO FIGHT CAUSE TRUST ME IM READY DONT BE A PUSSY BACK YOUR SHIT UP BITCH

Haha.
all this shit is fucking making me laugh.
I mena, it's total bullshit and all...but come on.

LOL!

elohvee_e @ 2005-08-26T07:43:00

2005-08-26T14:50:47Z

I like to get input on my writings....

Mysterious numbers dwindle lower and lower into extinction.

Emotions are fought so hard not to let them out.
Sooner or later they will rise to the top,
overflowing your head - drowning it in subconscious thoughts,
dying to escape to be known.

The stars shone for us.
A lesson learned.

Stars are dimmer,
yet happier than they have been before.

Nothing knowingness is a fine place to be.
Expect the unexpected.
Prepare to be shocked.
If you go looking for something, it will never be found.

Patience is absolute key.
It does nothing to think of what could be.
Don't have your dreams fly too far up into the clouds.

Countless sleepless nights,
wasted hours not being able to go to sleep.
Not being able to clear my thoughts of everything aobut you.

Now it is done.
My dreams don't have a face anymore.

Once again, my heart shatters further into dust,
only to be blown away by more thoughtless souls
Not to be disturbed.
Not to have your life interrupted by anything, or anyone you could possibly care about.

I just give up sometimes.
Is anything really worth having these feelings over?
Will this patience last?

Will I ever be able to breathe easily,
without anything to worry about,
without anything to cry over?

Just let me breathe easy,
knowing that there is someone out there breathing easily for me.

elohvee_e @ 2005-08-16T20:22:00

2005-08-17T03:29:19Z

daaaaaaaaaaaang

good ol goatse

elohvee_e @ 2005-08-09T11:10:00

2005-08-09T18:20:01Z

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elohvee_e @ 2005-07-22T07:01:00

2005-07-22T14:07:28Z

so my birthday...

it's july 22

elohvee_e @ 2005-07-19T12:56:00

2005-07-19T20:08:22Z

man....

i really hate when i feel like shit and i can't put my finger on what it is. Y'know?

im not working this morning. but i go in at 3. interesting huh?
um um.

yeah.
im bored as a motherfucker.
every movie in this house i have watched....
nothing is on tv.
no one to talk to.

ha. Yep.
i really wanna cut my hair before friday. ubt it's not gonna happen. unless someone wants to give me 50 bucks? anyone?

my pops caught me smoking yesterday. that was great. i thought he was gona smack me or something...i was scurrred.

suprisingly enough, he didn't even yell at me.

i wanna go to the beach so effing bad.
i haven't been in like...forever.
I miss the nights just sitting there watching the sky and the waves while everyone else was talking.

good times.
I find i am most content when i am by myself.
enjoying a decent view.
or feeling the cold air breeze past me...

im totally a night person. mhmm.
that's when everything is at it's most prettiest.

i wanna paint, but i don't want to prep or clean up. haha. right.
watercolors are my friend..i haven't done anything artsy fartsy in a while.

i mean i've written puh-lenty.
dang.
my sketch book is like..full of writings almost.

egh.i really need...i dont need..
i really WANT something new in my life.
seriously...everyday is the fucking same old bull shite.

work.
see if im going out...(right)
sleep.

that's my day. everyday.
Maybe not the weekend.

on the weekends im home on my ass doing nothing.

suuuuuucks.

i miss this guy...

gosh erik.
if i had a car, believe me, I'd be with you a whole hell of a lot more often...

bummer.

* sigh X core *

alright.
Imma shower.
and get ready..

no need to look pretty today.
no one there to look decent for.

elohvee_e @ 2005-07-08T19:38:00

2005-07-09T02:45:52Z

wow.

totally haven't posted in

ha.
scandalous.

elohvee_e @ 2005-07-01T23:11:00

2005-07-02T06:19:42Z

dearest livejournal,

how I've negleted you.

tonight is such a beautiful night.
i sit outside. clear my mind, and with every thought the wind shifts its direction.

nothing to look at but the sky, made white by the clouds in the air.
nothing to hear but the silence i want to hear.
nothing to feel but the cool wind against my arms and face, blowing my hair whichever way it decides.

it's just lovely. Ive got nothing to worry about.
absolutley nothing to be upset about.
thoughts just seem to slip away from my head.
i only want to think about what can make me calm inside and out.

i think about you.
i think about being with you.
just sitting.
no talking.
just watching and looking.
only feeling warm by eachothers presence.
nothing matters.
nothing can change this.

i am going to do what i need to make me feel at peace with myself.
it has come.
it has gone.
never completely of course, the thoughts are always just lingering by the faintest trace of sympathy.
but when i need to,
when i don't need these feelings in me anymore...
they will go.

and i,
will feel so wonderfully content.
i will sit by myself.
knowing i am,
all by myself.

and that is ok.
the time will come.
when you will be there.
and i won't worry anymore.
i will not let my head get so entangled, comsumed with these thoughts.
i will breathe.
and i will take things the way they come.
not to analyze.
not to think about.
just take it.
like i want you to take me.
just how it comes.
just how i come.

not to analyze.
not to have to pry into.

there are windows, you see,
these windows you see.
they can see you.
you can see the depths of the soul through these windows.
these blue, green speckled colored windows,
aching to open just for you
and you will love what's inside waiting to get out.
like a bird locked in a cage for so long...

hoping someone will come along and unlatch the lock
hoping someone can be able to let me stretch out my wings
let me fly.
let me feel these feelings.

this bird is tired of looking in the same old mirror.
tired of pecking at the same old things.

just let it out.
let it fly.

wow. An update.

2005-06-11T02:42:40Z

Hm...

Lots of changes for Hannah within the last month or so...

I think I've just realized more about things goin on with me right now.

They're good changes...I think. Well...perhaps a few will suck...for a good amount of time..but you know, things happen for a reason I guess.

I've been writing a whole hell of a lot recently. Been up late not being able to fall asleep cos I think too much. Mhmm....I think of things...well dream wihle I'm awake really. I just want htings so so bad...and like, they're right in fucking front of me and I can't have 'em. It's like...a big fat giant slap in the face. Just a big, "Hey look at me. I know you waaaaaaaaaaaaant me. But you can't haaaaaaaave me."

Fuck that shit. I'll get it. Just gimmie some time. I need to save my money.

Yeah. And I'm done with all the bullshit I deal with. I'm seriously...like, over caring about it anymore. Is caring about it gonne get me anywhere besides feeling like shite? Nooooope. So why bother man? I'm tired of putting so much effort into things and not getting anything out of it.

YEP!
Good ol Hannah is back.

Hahhaa.

Yeah man.
Don't ask me to smoke or drink either please. I'm staying with the ciggies only...perhaps even cutting down on those too...

Don't ask why. Cos it's not like it's gonna make you say, "Oh. Good for you." I mean...unless you gave a flyin fuck.

I'm just gonna sit back....and let things happen.
Yep. Not gonna hold my tongue anymore. You bother me, you're gonna hear it.

works goin okay.
I so totally do not get paid enough for what I do. No one there does. Kinda fucked huh? Well...better than sitting on my ass all day doing nothing for myself. I wish I could ask for a raise, and like..get it. Pfft. Oh well.

aye.....
Just gimmie my car so I can drive to the beach everynight after work, with a notebook in my hands (or your hand in mine), and watch the sun go to sleep....

If only huh? Ha...gotta throw that corny romantic shit in there right?

WELL THEN.
I'm out foo's.
To do....

oh, nothing...

elohvee_e @ 2005-05-17T11:07:00

2005-05-17T18:27:50Z

Quick Information
Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought that Wasnt Food:
1. Sweater
2. Black long sleeve button up
3. Make-up
4. Black claws, and glass swirlees fer me ears

2)Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
- agua
- juice
- agua
- sodie

3)Last time you had a real good Cry:
- egh. Dunno...Oh wait. When I couldn't get into Ozz that one night...super shitty night. Like..montsh ago though

4)What's In Your CD Player?
- lets see...John Lennon in Cd player. Pink Floyd on the turn table

5)What's Under Your Bed?
- Da floor yo

6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
- 6:30. But I fel lback asleep, and woke up at 8:30

7)Current Hair?
- bed head

8)Current Clothes?
- jamie pants. Black wife beater

9)Current Desktop Picture?
- Beatles

10)Current Worry?
- None

11)Current Hate?
- um...my gut

12)Favorite Place To Be?
- wildernesssss. Foresty is my favorite...but..don't have many chances to go there. SO! BEach at night home fry

13)Least Favorite Place?
- ...anywhere with a lot of people

14)If You Could Play An Instrument?
- IF? Pffffffffft. I play the drooms

15)Favorite Colors?
- black..purple

16)How Tall Are You?:
- too tal. 5' 10"

17)Favorite Expression?
- MMF

18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To?
- uh....No one i guess...

19)Favorite Day(s)?
- Day = whenever I don't have to work
- Days = Fall

20)Where Would You Like To Go?
- Switzerland with my lovie

21)Where do you want to live when you get married?
- anywhere rural

22)Favorite food?
- thai. No no...indonesian

23)Color of most clothes you own?
- black

24)Number of pillows you sleep with?
- 6. Hahaha

25)What do you wear when you go to sleep?
- jamie pants...tank top....nothing under either

26)what were you doing 12AM last night?
- dreaming...

27)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
- HOPEFULLY ill be a famous designer... ;)

28)Do you have braces?
- nuh

29)Are you paranoid?
- ha. Yeah man. Sometimes

30) Do you burn or tan?
- See. It's a cycle. I burn cos im a white mother fucker, THEN i tan if I'm lucky

31)What is the brand of your wallet?:
- pff. Tiger Print

32)First piercing/tattoo:
- Ears. And wrist

33)First enemy?
- ....no one. Life's to short to have fuckin enemies

36)Last thing you ate?
- 'Sghetti

37)If you could be a pirate, would you?
- MHMM!!!

38)If you could change one thing in your life, what would it be?
- Eithr good grades to go to a good school, or a lot of money to go to a good school

39) If you could be with anyone right now, who would it be?
- ah....April of course...

Do you feel like an asshole? Cos I do.

2005-04-08T05:23:42Z

Wow. I feel super detatched from everyone, and everything right now. Suppose I'm going through another one of those fuck EVERYTHING apathetic spells. Y'think?

It's gettin down to it.
Like, it's just the same ol bullshit that's going on.

I say I'll never be treated like that again, and it happens again. And I forgive it again...and again, and again...

Egh.
I need something new in my life. It's totally there right now. Just a matter of two people acknowledging it I guess. Mhmm. I totally dig on her. Like, a lot. Constant smiles when I'm around her. And trying not to laugh for 5 minutes doesn't work for a second. Chaaaaaa. But do I want to get involved in something? I know it's possible with her for serious... Aye. I suppose I need some assurance from the other side. But I don't wanna be a crazy clingy bitch.

Haha.
Whateverrrrrr.

Yeah.
I just wanna go to the beach and have a discussion. But everyone is out and partying and dancing and swinging and being with people they enjoy being around.

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Nice. UGH came out in my subconcious typing. Haha.
night everyone.

it's been a while

2005-04-01T05:01:49Z

here we go

2005-03-19T04:08:05Z

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power,
and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

-Jim Morrison, in Beauty

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-17T08:04:00

2005-03-17T16:09:45Z

what in the hell is going on?

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-10T20:15:00

2005-03-11T04:20:18Z

Boo.

I look super cute today. And no one to show. :( And no camera. :( x 2

'Cept the girlies at work. ;)

and some of the clients who alsways come in. ;)

Aw.
I felt pretty today.
It'd been a while.

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-10T19:50:00

2005-03-11T03:56:03Z

what the eff?

Why am I always the one calling people to go out?
At lunch...I see what's up.
After work, I see what's up.
When I'm effing bored, I see what's up.

CHA!
I never get calls. It's like...depressing. :(

Uh.
My feet smell real bad. I washed em twice...and they still smell. Poop. I need to wash those damn shoes is what it is.

Alright.
Banana out.

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-10T08:08:00

2005-03-10T16:13:07Z

...off to work I go.

ECCH!

Straight from my Myspace

2005-03-09T06:18:50Z

Man.

I like not working Tuesday mornings. I spent the night at Jacob's house last night. I like Cynthia a lot. She's cool. Y'know. For being 14.

Well. I have come to a conclusion. Tweeking is fucking disgusting. Fucking. Disgusting. I'm sorry for who I offend...but gross. ANYWAY.

I'd say it was about 12:05 at night when I went to have my last ciggie for the night....

There's just someing about midnight that I love.
The time when a whole new day is starting, and another one is ending. It's like, time kinda stops for a minute to re-adjust itself and get back on track. Everyone is asleep, except for the lucky few who are outside enjoying it. The birds are chirping, only just enough so they don't wake anyone up. There is such a silence, one that you would never hear if you weren't alone.

It was breezy, and a crystal clear night. Looking at the stars, and just being outside at night.....geez. I can't even describe it. You've just gotta be there.

I guess..sometimes it's good to be alone. It gives you time to think. And no one is around to persuade you into thinking differently. That's when our true selves come out. When you're by yourself. You're never the same person with everyone. I mean really. You think so....you'd LIKE to think so, but you aren't. I thought I was the same with everyone. But there's always one thing you might have to hold back with, or with other people you can actually be yourself.

Let's see. You aren't actually 1 person. You are many people all rolled into one.
Let's count:
The person you are :

1) with your family.
2) with your close friends
3) with your hangout friends. (the friends of the friends)
4) with your lover
5) with your work friends
6) with yourself and strangers
7) with yourself only
8) when you're on the phone
9) when you're online
10) when you're stoned (any drug kids)
11) when you're drunk

Did I get em all? I think so.
If I missed any. Tell me.

Man. Im fucking tired. Fuck smoking during the day without taking a nap and going to work.

Goodnight kids. If you happen to be awake at 12 tonight, anynight, step outside and sit for a while.

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-08T20:33:00

2005-03-09T04:38:03Z

ha

my dad's making me watch a plasmatics dvd.

elohvee_e @ 2005-03-08T19:49:00

2005-03-09T03:50:01Z

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elohvee_e @ 2005-03-06T23:51:00

2005-03-07T08:08:47Z

gaddamnit.

Went and visited Shulla today like I said I would.
Found her plugs. Wait. My plugs. Hahah

EWE.
So, I have flares plugs in that are 8's, probably taper to a little bigger than a 6. Sheila held my ear apart while I pulled em out. The first one hurt like a mother fucker. I was pulling, and pulling, and all of a sudden I hear a POP. Ha. I wa lsike, "Oh shit! It's finally out!"

EEP. So I busted out the tapered hoops and slowly slowy the 6's went in. Owie man. It was raunch bloody too. Ha. Then we ate, and chilled. And did the other one. That one was like nothing. Cha. Whatever. And I come home and shower, and get the nasty lookin hoops out of my ear with the real plugs. Fuck man. I had to toally force em through. Fingees covered with blood. Fuck man. The blue plus were like, BLACK on the back. Sick shit man. OH WELL! Now, my ears are pissed at me, and swollen like a mother fucker. I hope they don't hurt tomorrow. Eh. THREE MORE SIZES TO ZERO! Weehee.

Uh.
So Sheila's was fun. It was just us ghuls. We go Sheila all the shit on her list. Hot Cheeto's, ice cream, tiwx's, throat pop's, gatorade melon flavor, some tampoons so she doesn't have to wear diapers, girls scout cookies. And we went to get movies and pizza. And breadsticks. And Hot wings. Damn fat bitches. We watched DAZED AND CONFUSED. Hell fucking yes. I love that movie now. I'd never seen it before. Ha. The best part was when the guy pulled his belt buckle off and he took one hit off it and put it back on. I'm seriously on the hunt for a belt buckle pipe now.

Full work day tomorrow.
I've never worked a Monday afternoon. Let's see how it goes. I've got a feeling the new guy's gonna quit. But that's just me.

Uh. Yeah.
Lots of shit in my head right now. Like a dirty desk. I need to organize it.

MHMM!
Night kiddies.